Monday, June 13, 2011

I just need to close my eyes, just for a second...

I know, I know I haven't posted in a while and I didn't do a Sucking it in Saturday post either.  No Excuses right?  Well I will still give you my reasons as I am sure you may be wondering what the heck is going on (unless you could really give a shit less then I will still tell you- so there!) 
One this weekend was a somewhat busy weekend for us, although 2 out of the 4 children were not  home this weekend, We had a birthday party to go to, the Hubs and I went to the casino (it felt great to have a night just the two of us).  And then of course we had to pick up the kids as well. 
Well we did not get the house, its a bummer I know and I think right now we are at a crossroads at what to do because there are tons of houses out there that are for sale but the only problem is they are far from our price range or have the quilities we are looking for... so I am not exactly sure what we are doing at this point. 
I have not been exercising nor have I been eating right, I know bad me!  Obviously my goal will not be reached by my 30th.  I'm also not sure were I will go from here.  I do want to loose more weight that is for sure but at the point in time when I look in the mirror (with clothes)I like what I see, I'm not thrilled with it but I am happy.  Now standing in front of a mirror naked is a total other story I hated it, I fear it, I could probably cry if I did it long enough.  But I think at this point with my confort level I think SIIS will be put on hold I am happy and excited and proud of myself for loosing the first 20lbs!  I am working on other aspects of my looks right now as well.  My teeth are a mess, (not as bad as you may think) but I am whitening them so that my two front teeth can have crowns placed.  I need to make a doctors appointment to find out why in the world I still have no energy and why I am so tired all the time but I have been to tired to make the appointment.  I have been taking over the counter iron pills and B12 and still they have had no affect on me.  I hope we figure something out soon because I can barely function like this and I would like to have the energy to begin exercising again.
Schools out for Summer! This is a good thing and a not so good thing.  Good thing I don't have to get up early as hell every morning to get Devin off to school, and hurry home every day to pick her up from the bus stop, not so good news.... the kids still get up early as hell!  I know have 4 kids to deal with during the day which would be fine if my almost 8 year old didn't have such a horrible attitude lately ( I pray she is not starting puberty early!), and now if I go any where I have to take all of them with me.  But we will get through this as we do every summer, but this will be my first summer with 4 in tow. 
Well that is all for now, I hope to update a little more this week but no promises. 

Have an Oh So Wonderful Day!

1 comment:

Jessica said...

I am sorry to hear about you not getting the house, I know how frustrating that can be. But the exciting thing is, you get to find something else :) I think you've done a great job at losing the weight, and that fact that you are happier with what you see is wonderful, and I think thats all that matters! Miss reading your posts! :)