From my phone..

Let's see how well I do at this post as I am typing it on my phone! Don't you just live technology? I do! (most of the time). I have not been on my computer much lately mainly because I can do so much from my phone now and if I have unlimited data plan and I'm paying for it them I'm gonna use it!! You would figure I would prefer to use the computer but I have gotten so use to the portability of my phone! It's hard to go from one to another, when I pos on my blog I normally do it from my computer but today I am being lazy and just don't want to get it out. I'm tired/exhausted confused and irritated, upset and did I mention tired? Yes defiantly tired!
The kids are out of school and boy did we start the summer vacation off with a bang? We've been almost constantly arguing with my almost 8 year old daughter. For some reason the last day of school she came home with a massive attitude and has been back talking and argumentative ever since, not quite sure were it came from either. Them to make it so much better she has decided on a daily basis to ask me to take her to he beach, one most of the days have not been that warm and two I'm not taking for children to the beach by myself during the summer!
Oh and as lovely as that has all been my two year olds sleep schedule is all jacked up (she was up a 3 am the other day and ready to begin the day!) I have no clue how it got so messed up maybe it's because she refuses to nap most days! The 5 year old is whining even more then normal but that's probably because her older sister is annoying the he'll out of her and anyone who gets in her path!! Wow I guess that just leaves the baby huh? Yeah she hasn't been to bad to deal with.
As you can see I've been having a rough time, just letting the stress of parenthood get to me I guess, I'll get through it but sometimes I just want to lock myself in my room and block it all out! Don't you? There's not shame in saying it gets to you, there's also no shame in saying that your kids aggregate you because I don't care what people say nobody's kids are perfect life is stressful and there is no way. Your family is always 100% happy and perfect and if you think that way then you are in complete denial!! I hate to say it like that but I have seen people complain on Facebook and such saying they hate seeing people complain about there kids but if you think about it, one I love my kids to death, but they are my life and my job if you can go on Facebook and twitter and complain about your job I can complain about my job!! Right?? Exactly!! So shut your pie hole!!

Have an Oh So Wonderful Day!!
Catrina

Ear infections and Class trips

We had a late night run to the emergency room last night, miss Kara kept waking up screaming (and I mean screaming/crying) that her ear hurt.  So I took her in and sure enough she has an ear infection, so no shes on zithromax and tylonal with codeine for pain (mainly to help her sleep).  She slept in a bit this morning, and later I looked at her ear only to find that she has a ruptured ear drum :( 
Thankfully she seems to be doing okay today.  She napped for a while, and is now awake again.  The bad news is she probably needs ear tubes and the ENT can't get her in until July.  This is her 4th ear infection this year.  Yes 4 ear infections in 5 months.  I just hope that if she gets the tubes placed that it will help her.  Devin does good when she has her tubes, problem is that when they fall out she has all sorts of problems again. 
Okay I am sure there are all sorts of parents out there that have chaperoned their kids field trip before but to be honest, I never have.  Ever since Devin has been in school I have had another child to take care of so I never volunteered.  Devin has been begging me and begging me to chaperoned a field trip.  So finally my mom said that I needed to chaperon a field trip, she told me she would watch the other girls.  The field trip is this week and as it has gotten closer and closer I am getting more nervous, really don't ask me why but I am.  I'm not a person who likes to be in charge of big things.  No, really I'm serious, at the kids birthday parties up until this year I would make my mom or grandma tell everyone that it is time to open presents or make them start singing Happy Birthday. Seriously this is my family and I still have issues.  Well at least I am better with dealing with children, so I should do better but I just hope I don't end up with any rowdy kiddos.  I guess we will see how things go this week... 

Have an Oh So Wonderful Night!
Catrina

Hello my name is Catrina and I'm a ......

Scale junkie!  Yes you heard me right I'm addicted to weighing myself,  I know its bad.  I don't mean to be this way but when I go to the bathroom I feel the urge to strip down and weigh myself.  Ha ha yeah I said strip down, I want to know my actual body weight not my weight with clothes on.  So sorry folks you wont ever see a pic of me on the scale ha ha.  When I finally hit my first goal weight I may take a picture of just the scale but I guarantee, you will only see my feet.  Were does this addiction come from?  Its not like my weight is going to change drastically from day to day,  that's why I chose to have Saturday be my weigh in day.  But I can't wait till Saturday, I'm a scale junkie and I have a problem!  Is there a cure for this?  If you know of it please let me know, I need some serious help!  Oh and does it make it any worse that when I do weigh myself I weigh myself at least 3 times!  3rd times a charm right? 

Do you have any odd addictions?  Like an addiction to a devil television show or looking in the mirror constantly?  I want to know that I am not the only one!

Have an Oh So Wonderful Day!
Catrina

I vow to... Wait didn't I do this already?

I've said it a hundred times... I've started something and I was all excited about it but my energy level was just not there and I slacked and I stopped doing what I was doing and became disappointed in myself.  I had become a slacker and instead of getting motivated to start doing it again, I got upset and slacked even more.    My energy level has deminished this few months, yeah I've been exercising but I still have no energy I'm exhausted all the time I literally have to force myself just to get out of bed to do anything.  I just want to sleep all day!  I wonder if it is just a lack of sleep, if its caught up with me, but then I wonder is there something wrong with me?  Seriously?  There is no way someone can feel this kind of exhaustion and weakness and not have something wrong with them!  Okay it sounds like I am having an pity party and getting ahead of myself, but I'm not so please bear with me..  So today I made an appointment, I will get checked tomorrow, I am going to find out what the hell is wrong with me and start working to fix it and get some damn energy!

With the way that I am feeling I feel like I am failing as a parent, seriously I do!  Don't be mistaken I am taking care of my kids, I feed them, I bath them and they are well cared for but there is so much more that I can do for them.  I could play with them, do activities with them.  We can learn new things and take trips places.  But right now, these things are not happening.  I do have to say that to me a child doesn't need to be occupied by thier parent all the time, they do need to be able to entertain themselfs and play with thier toys and thier siblings without thinking that thier parent should be there playing with them constantly.  But sadly I don't do much with them right now because my energy levels are so low, I'm lucky that I even exercise once a day.  But I don't want to be like that anymore! Its time to take action! and that is what I am doing.  I have an almost 5 year old that needs to learn new things before entering kindergarten in the fall and while she has learned things in preschool I want to teach her more!  I have a 2 year old that needs to be potty trained and weened from her pacifier and taught new things.  I have an infant that while theres not much more we can do right now, she will be ready to start learning things eventually. And well I have a 7 year old that I just need to spend more time with in general.  Our relationship is slacking (thats a whole other post in itself!).  I have a house that constantly needs to be straightened up and laundry that constantly needs to be done.  Breakfasts, lunches, and dinners that need to be made.  And while all this does get done, some of it takes a while for me to get it done.  Because I am so tired I spend most of my day lying around, this just can't be normal thing... Can it?
Since I spent a few days in the hospital with Carly I was broken from my somewhat routine (which I really didn't have one), So today I get back into the swing of things,  I slacked on eating right in the hospital but then again I was more concerned about Carly then loosing weight.  Today I start back.  Time to begin exercising again so obviously I just added 3 more days onto the end of my 12 weeks transformation (which I don't mind).  But again I have no energy... I didn't sleep much in the hospital because Carly didn't sleep much. So I have to try to catch up on that as well.  :)

Have an Oh So Wonderful Day!
Catrina

I think I strayed away...

Pre-warning the follow was written in advanced and may no longer be accurate at this time. We apologize in advanced if you feel deceived.   Haha, naw I wrote this yesterday (Sunday) because instead of napping while my children nap I am sitting here all sweating after exercising afraid to get up at the moment because with being sick and weak comes even more weakness when you are exercising and sweating while sick. 
I know, I know I probably should get my sweaty stinky arse in the shower but while doing said exercises the room got a bit hazy so I thought to myself that getting into a hot shower right away when feeling this was is probably not the best choice on my part.  Even more so because right now its just me and babies and I don't think either of them are going to get up and call 911 or wake me up if my arse is passed out on the bathroom floor.  So I sit here and write to you my fellow readers and writers.  I thought with all the sweating that I have been doing lately that this cold (or whatever the hell it is) would be gone by now, but I guess I was mistaken.
I did a little photo shoot with Carly yesterday (Saturday), I wanted to get some 6 month pictures of her, maybe I will share them with you at a later time.  Can you believe that Carly is going to be 6 months old?  I know they grow so fast don't they?  I did get a few good pictures and I edited them and I even got a cute one of Brooke for her 5 year photo, omg she is going to be 5 this year!  Wooh time flies!  I'm in shocked that my kids are already this old. 
To think that this fall I will have 2 children in school!  That's just crazy!  Why can't they be babies forever?  Maybe that is why my mom is getting mad at me because I yet to potty train Kara and The Hubby is mad at me because I haven't taken her Binkie away.  Yep that is most defiantly probably why.  Devin grew up way to fast and while its fun to see the little baby milestones happen early I don't think I am quite ready for my babies to not be babies.  But don't you fear I am working on getting Kara potty trained but lets put it this way, she doesn't want to be so its taking some time.  She gets mad when I put her in underwear, once she is in them she is fine and she will pee in the toilet if you stay on her but even if you are on her little butt constantly she still ends up peeing in her underwear.  For example just the other day I had her in her underpants and she was doing really well peeing in the baby potty.  So we decided to watch some devil television in my room, I kept asking if she had to pee and she kept saying no.  I told her, you make sure tell mommy if you got to pee because I don't want you to pee on my bed and the next thing I know my leg felt hot and wet.... Can you guess what happen?  Yeah she pissed on my bed!  I almost wonder if getting rid of the binkie would be easier then potty training her.  I guess that's what I get for having 2 kids that were a little easier to train now I have to have the tough one.
Well I think its safe to take my shower now....

Have an Oh So Wonderful Day!
Catrina

Sick babies and kiddos...

Its amazing, I have 4 girlies, the older 3 get sick and life goes on I take care of them and do what needs to be done to make them better. They get their pampering when they are ill (because of course I would be a mean mommy if they didn't). But what is it about the baby in the family that just makes your heart melt and you feel so sad and helpless when they are sick? Devin has yet another ear infection, thankfully she feels fine other wise, and we're so use to ear infections (with her at least) that things don't really change much (unless she is in severe pain) this time around she doesn't have pain, she just can't hear worth a shit. I'm afraid the child is going to end up needing a third set of ear tubes! (I sure hope not).
Kara at this time has again a double ear infection and double eye infection, she is now on antibiotics again! The poor child went through this back in december! I hope this isn't going to be a new thing for her to constantly have ear infections like Devin. I don't want to have another child have ear tubes placed. But if it helps her then so be it. She too seems fine at least during the day. She is running around playing and having fun. She is a little crabby but you (as well as I) need to remember she is 2! So now we wait for the antibiotics to kick in and start kicking butt. I hope this is the last time we have to deal with this...
Now on to my baby girl... The one I feel aweful for! The one who although seems happy and fine most of the time, I feel horrible for right now. She, like Kara has a double eye infection. But unlike Kara, Carly's eyes are much worse, it makes your eyes water to just look at her, it makes your eyes hurt to just look at her, I feel so aweful. One top of this though, she has a viral infection, yeah I know doesn't sound like a big deal does it? Well to make it worse she is wheezing and breathing fast. She can't suck on her binkie because of the congestion and the trouble she is having with breathing. She won't sleep in her crib so when she naps I have to sit with her in my bed (to make sure she doesn't fall off the bed). She is normally really clinging towards me and I know this, and I try to prevent this (normally) but I feel so bad for her right now that I don't mind the clingyness. She is in fact my baby girl and I want to make her as comfortable as possible. She is now on albuteral, or breathing treatments right now to help her with her breathing. Unfortunitly they informed me that she may also end up with asthma or wheezing problems down the road.... That really sucks! Well good thing we already know how to give breathing treatments and have a machine (since my Brooke has childhood asthma).
So for now I take care of my baby girl and feel so badly for her...

Have an Oh So Wonderful Day!
Catrina

Randomnes is my life!

I'm feeling good today, well for the most part except I'm tired (like always) and I had a horrible dream last night that has me all upset now. Does that ever happen to you? You have a bad dream (whatever it may be) and then your whole day is thrown off. Thats me today, Now I'm exhausted because I had trouble falling back to sleep after said dream pissed me off and woke me up.
Thankfully today is my day off from exercising because I just don't have the energy or motivation to do them today. But I do need to go to the grocery store and get some food, I have ran out of things for smoothies and lunch stuff for the kids and we have no milk...(don't worry we just ran out last night, we have formula and things for the baby, but the big kids need stuff as well).
The kiddos do need to watch thier Your Baby Can Read video and review thier cards & Book.. Brooke needs to do her "Homework".
But I am just so darn tired! All of a sudden (now that Devin is home) the house has gotten loud. How is it that if only 1 or 2 are together its quite but you add one more and it gets really loud? They seem to just all of a sudden go straight into fighting. But I guess that is the life when you have 4 girls (such drama queens!).
Carly had her shots yesterday and she is not having a good day today. She is running a little fever and is slightly crabby, she has been sleeping alot today. I hope this does not last for to long, this is the first time since she was born that she hasn't even been slightly sick (other then her acid reflux).
Well I guess that is the Randomness of my day...

Have an Oh So Wonderful Day!
Catrina

Both of us suffer from painful thighs!

I know its not Saturday yet, so its not time for my weigh in and I know that I have been talking about this a lot this week but bare with me this is my first week and well I have anxieties, fears, excitement and all of the above this week so right now this is the main thing going through my mind most of the day right now.

I told you the scale is my enemy and hates me! I also have a tendency to weigh myself way to much and dwell on why I have not lost any weight yet. I have exercised every day this week since Saturday, tomorrow (Friday) is my day off, I have been eating healthy (for the most part) but there are some things I need to work on. I weighed myself this morning and was disappointment and not happy with what I saw. Its very depressing but at the same time there are a few factors that could be effecting the scales hatred for me. I do feel a change (slightly), the Hubby said he is starting to see definition in my arms and I did see that I lost an inch off my waist the other day. But I still have cravings, you know the ones that make you want food that is not healthy for you, that food that is so tempting and delicious! The stuff that you know you shouldn't be eating right now. So I'm still working on those issues of mine.
I have been sticking to my exercising and feeling good about sticking to them although I have been in pain all week, yesterday I started to feel some relief I was actually able to walk up and down the stairs with out that initial surge of pain when I took that first step. Then today I began my exercises thinking that I could go deeper into my lunges now that the pain is subsiding. Oh that was a horrible idea! Now the pain is worse then ever, I have a stabbing pain in my muscles. Finding your balance in exercising, what you can and cannot do is hard! Just when you think you can handle more bam your wrong! "No Pain No Gain"

Carly had her 4 month check up today and got 3 shots and some kind of liquid. The girlie is growing! She weighs 15.5lbs, which is 70% for weight (not bad even though she is on baby food now) and she is 26 1/4 inches long which is 93% for height, she is one tall little girlie. She is doing good and hitting her milestones. The doctor wasn't to pleased with some of the things that I was doing. Like the fact that miss Carly is eating straight baby food, and no rice cereal. But sorry the kid does not like rice cereal and I am not going to force it on her. She loves baby food though, the doctor said we can continue to give her what she is eating but not to add more, I left out the fact that for breakfast and dinner Carly eats stage 2 foods and they are not just fruits and veggies (they are the mixed ones too). I left out the fact that Carly won't sleep unless she has a blankie to hold (I know that wouldn't go over to well) or the fact that she has a little violet dog that sleeps in her bed because she loves to listen to the music when she goes to bed.
This is my 4th kid I think I know what I am doing by now....don't you? I'm not saying nothing bad can't happen but so far nothing has. Kara is the same way though she has a blanket that she has had since birth and won't go to bed without it.
Like I have always said I know that the doctors do know things but sometimes it doesn't compare to mothers instincts (or sanity).

Have an Oh So Wonderful Day!
Catrina

A random kind of post

So I am sitting here watching your baby can read with my kids and surfing facebook and thinking about things... See I can multi task!

When I see on facebook a bunch of my old school freinds say that there is an explosion not far from were I use to live!

The furniture store exploded in my old town! They aren't yet sure how it happened but its pretty crazy! And scary I hope the people that were in the store are okay! I am prayer for anyone who was involved that they will be okay!

I had to go grocery shopping yesterday, which let me tell you is a bad idea when you are sick and not feeling good but it needed to be done. An even worse idea though... Taking 3 kids grocery shopping while sick! Let me tell that was a bad move on my part! Thankfully my sweet husband met me at the store to help me finish shopping and load the grocerys into the truck.

Well I bought some things yesterday that I know I will be eating once I start my new years resolution to get healthy (and thinner) next year. Well I decided today that I'm going to start a little early. Why now right? I mean new years is only days away, so I figured that I mine as well start now, because its never to late to start getting healthy and in to shape. Although I still may wait to start exercising until I get rid of this cough and bronchitis that I am suffering from (because I think I have bronchitis). But hey what a great time to start eating healthier (when your sick). I didn't take a picture of it but I made a pretty yummy smoothie this morning, consisting of orange juice, a banana, some strawberries, blueberries and raspberries, greek vanilla yogart and about 10 leafs of spinach. It turned out pretty good if I do say so myself.

I think I may be making smoothies daily, for me and the kiddos (especially if I can add veggies to it and they can't taste it) Kara really liked it! for some reason though she thought it was chocolate milk (and there was no milk in it haha). We got your baby can read for the little girlies for Christmas and I have been trying to get them to watch. Carly of course hasn't really been watching but Kara has :) I am also planning on getting more into teaching Brooke and Kara, I have slacked a bit because Brooke has been going to school but its time to get started again.

But I must go and rest now...

Have an Oh So Wonderful Day!!

Catrina

Its Causes More then just Heartache...

Loosing a child to Miscarriage or Stillbirth can cause more then just Heartache....
Recently we have dealt with alot of health problems in my family but most recently we've had to deal with watching some family members have heart attacks which is very scary as anyone who has had a family member have one knows.
Yesterday as I was going to check my email an article on the aol news feed pops up that caught my eye for more then one reason.
The title read "Repeated Miscarriage Quintuples Heart Attack Risk". It scares me to think that my chances of Heart Attack has increased even more now. Heart Problems run in my family so I'm already at increased risk for Heart Attack. But According to the article.

"Compared to women who never had a miscarriage, women who had more than three were about five times more likely to ever suffer heart attack, the study found. Have just one stillbirth more then tripled the risk of heart attack."

The article also states though:

"Women who have had a miscarriage -- or even more than one -- should not be unduly concerned if they don't have other risk factors for heart disease. less than 1 percent of the women in the study had a heart attack."

I don't think I would be so shocked (and a bit frightened) if we haven't had to deal with this lately but after dealing with it, I think thats why it scares me a little more. Thankfully my family members are okay (if you were wondering).

I guess its a good thing that I plan to take even better care of myself once the new year begins. So hopefully I can prevent any future problems from accuring.